I stared a good bit into The mirror, questioning what kind of person I’ve let myself turn Into. After a couple minutes, if even that. it didn’t take me long to realize I am no longer the person I imagined myself to be, or the person I wanted myself to be.
Dream catchers got their start in the Ojibwa (Chippewa) Nation. Over time,...– http://wonderopolis.org/wonder/how-do-dream-catchers-catch-dreams/ (via turtle297)
If I would have made logical decisions, nothing would be like this.
I just really want to get away from everyone. the people I thought were real? They don’t care. the family I have? Too busy for me. Not looking for a pity party, just finally realizing exactly how my life is shaped at the moment
what have I gotten myself into
Everything I want I can’t have. which isn’t very much of a big deal. It’s the fact that everything I don’t want is my life. Numerous ways I’ve tried to think of solutions to my “problems” , but in the end… I have nothing. No solution at least. Usually just more endless thoughts of not knowing what to do. No one to talk to, no one who understands,...
I don't remember..
The last time we had a meaningful conversation, last time we really laughed together, the last time we really felt alive with each other.
2 cups of Tang & 1 cup of vodka later, I don’t feel so bad about my life. Or at least it doesn’t phase me as much right now.
I really should listen,
“You’re messing in dangerous water” “Don’t get in over your head” I never listen to anything people say & now I don’t know what I’ve gotten into.
Sometimes the most forbidden fruit tastes the sweetest
“This is my life, I’m both happy & sad, and I’m still trying to figure out how that can be”
Dying for A very berry hibiscus refresher from...
Every Little thing, Is gonna be alright
After what seems to be everything going wrong at once, things are starting to get better. I’ve applied at AB Tech today, & am scheduled to take my placement test in february. I’ve started working out again, I feel great & notice that the workouts have been effective. & me and my boyfriend have finally managed to get out of our fighting daily, rut. Keeping my fingers crossed...
3 different times
i’ve tried to register to finish high school 3 different times this month, & every time some bullshit happens & i need to bring more paper work. fml. can I please get a pause, rewind, to 2 years back? & start all over.
my boyfriend won’t go with me to get my first tattoo. :(
New year, Same shit.
I’ve lost who I am, I used to know what i wanted to do, where i wanted to live, where I stood with everyone, my thoughts on this mess of a world. etc. Now? I don’t know anything now. I haven’t the slightest clue where I want to llive or even what i want to do. or where i even want to go to college. I dont even know if im going to be able to finish school this year. One thing I...
alaska-alaskaa: adderall is a magical wonderful thing and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise
can’t take it anymore, I want to be tiny but it’s so much work!
I want to live simply. I want to sit by the window when it rains and read books I’ll never be tested on. I want to paint because I want to, not because I’ve got something to prove. I want to listen to my body, fall asleep when the moon is high and wake up slowly, with no place to rush off to. I want not to be governed by money or clocks or any of the artificial restraints that humanity imposes...
Pilates will be the death of me
are complicated. The romantic, business, even family relationships are tough. all my family in the surrounding area has left. Been brave enough to accept the challenges life’s given them. Where does that leave me? I feel like I’m to scared of right, or wrong, to do anything. I need to start living again. Only questioning ‘Why Not?’ when an opportunity arises. That what I...
alone time today. Enjoying it. Usually I feel quite alone in this world. But today, i feel loved. Not by the people I want it from particularly, however the people whom I know mean it. & that for now, is enough.
I don’t think about the consequences Lately, I don’t seem to think about life much at all. at least not my actions. I seem to just keep going about my days, somewhat like a robot. Im stuck in my head, trying to decide how to make a right decision. But, how are you supposed to know when a life changing decision, is right? I’d like to go with my heart, but I don’t know...
Hiking - I don’t like either the word or the thing. People ought to saunter in...– John Muir (via thatkindofwoman)
Think happy thoughts.
Lately, I can’t seem to keep my thoughts slow enough for me to even process them. But when my mind does quit racing, and I remind myself to just breathe, my thoughts are happy, calm. Almost Like a whisper. I’m pretty sure it’s the fall air getting to me, I’m not complaining though. I feel like, if you listen close enough, the leaves are talking. In the fall, If you just...
i won't cry for you, my mascara's too expensive.
sitting here crying & pondering on why I’m wasting my time crying. I’ve she’d too many tears over a relationship that seems to be just a burden to you. if you aren’t appreciating my presence, then maybe you’d appreciate my absence instead.
daniellesusan: i need chicken nuggets and a blunt.
real friends walk in when the rest of the world walks out. well Im in need of a friend and called all the ones who I consider close, and never get a response. so I guess everyone’s just walked out. my dogs my only real friend.